SILENCED: Dolores O’Riordan

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In the emerald haze of Ballybricken in Limerick, where the River Maigue whispers secrets to the wind-swept fields, Dolores Mary Eileen O’Riordan was born on September 6, 1971. The eighth of nine children in a modest Catholic home, she was a soloist in her church choir and played the organ and harmonium from age 12 onward. Dolores joined The Cranberries through her first boyfriend, Mike O’Mahoney, who connected her with the band. Dolores’ unique vocal timbre turned “Everybody Else Is Doing It” (1993) into a sleeper hit. But 1994’s “No Need to Argue” birthed “Zombie,” which became a stadium anthem and a raw indictment of IRA bombings after the Warrington child deaths. Island Records offered the singer $1 million USD to abandon “Zombie” and work on a different song instead, fearing its “politically urgent” anti-IRA content would harm sales. She tore up Island Records’ $1M bribe to shelve the hit song. The BBC banned it; Dolores stood defiant. Irony and controversy? A badge of honor.

The song was never meant to be political but humanitarian instead, an anti-violence, an anti-war anthem of sorts. The Cranberries continued their success with the 1996 album “To the Faithful Departed,” but trouble started to brew as they cancelled the Australian leg of their tour promoting the album. The official statement emphasized “Dolores’s excruciating back pain” preventing any performance, while the press called it “exhaustion from extensive touring and management pressure.” The truth? “I hated singing, I hated being on stage, I hated being in the Cranberries. I was constantly crying. I was going insane. I wanted to be a shopkeeper, a hairdresser, anything. I was so desperate to have a reality, friends, a regular, boring life. I missed that. I got so lonely and depressed.” She later confirmed being anorexic during this era. In October 2013, Dolores told journalist and close friend Barry Egan in the Sunday Independent’s Life that she attempted suicide by overdosing on meds but “wanted to live for her kids.”

The abuse’s tendrils twisted deepest in her psyche. Songs like “In the Garden” (2007) and “Skeleton” (2009) became cathartic exorcisms. This sexual abuse by a trusted “family friend” was no mere footnote. It burrowed depression and self-loathing, which were worsened by her accelerating career and led to anorexia. At her father’s funeral in 2011, her abuser apologized for his actions. “I had nightmares for a year before my father’s death about meeting him. I didn’t see him for years and years, and then I saw him at my father’s funeral. I had blocked him out of my life.” No name was disclosed as Dolores feared her father “would have killed him.” Dolores and her husband, Don Burton, ended their marriage in September 2014 after 20 years together and three children. The couple met as he was the manager for Duran Duran’s U.S. tour, which saw the Cranberries open. They married just a few months later.

Due to the marriage’s strain, Danny Goldberg (ex-Nirvana/Hole) managed Dolores from 2011 to 2014. This character is notorious for being one of the people who aided Courtney Love in covering up for the (industry-sanctioned) murder of Kurt Cobain. Amid tempests, 2014 brought light: Andy Rourke, The Smiths’ bassist, whose Jetlag demos with Olé Koretsky captivated Dolores, became a close ally. A “chance meeting through management,” Andy recalled in Spill Magazine. Emails flew; D.A.R.K. was born. The Cranberries singer had been a lifelong fan, and soon enough, they became like brother and sister. A year prior, on October 26, 2013, I met Andy. I was summoned to get our guest some enhancers for that night’s event, and we ended up becoming great friends, keeping in touch up until his tragic death on May 19, 2023. Andy was one of my most trusted sources, but, most of all, an older brother. Someone who listened with patience and care and who gave sound advice when needed. Never one to judge another, simply one of the sweetest, funniest guys I’ve ever met.

Why do I tell you this? On October 30, 2022, I received one of the last emails from him. “Dear Rochester, spooky season’s here. Hope you are keeping out of trouble. How’s married life treating you? Pass my love on to Lua. Hope the move to Portugal was sound, mate. You had a pastel de nata yet or what? I’m knackered, to be honest, but I’ve got a premiere tonight so I’ll drag myself through it. Just thought I’d say hi. Had a lot on my mind lately, been thinking back to the last time I was in the Med. That was with DARK, and we had some proper good times. I miss Dolores a lot. I know you asked me about her more than once and I always held back, but I reckon it’s time now to share a few things she told me before she went.” P.S. “Rochester” is the nickname the owners of the venue we met at had given me. He only allowed me to publish this if he passed away. This is all I can share now, but the rest pertains to her death. It also consolidates my fears in regards to the deaths of Chris Cornell and Chester Bennington.

The rest of the email will be published on the last episode of my docuseries, “Louder Than Love,” to come out before the end of January 2026. Andy was distressed when Dolores was arrested and charged in connection with air rage on a flight to Ireland on November 10, 2014. She grew abusive to the crew, and as police were arresting her, she resisted, shouting that her taxes paid their wages and, “I’m the Queen of Limerick! I’m an icon!” headbutting one Garda officer and spitting at another. She allegedly fractured the air hostess’s foot during the incident. Following her arrest, Dolores spent three weeks in a psychiatric hospital. She later pleaded guilty to the charges. The judge agreed to dismiss all charges under certain conditions. Later, Dolores told the media that she had been stressed from living in New York hotels following the end of her 20-year marriage. Having to face her abuser probably set some wires off as well, which is completely understandable.

In 2015, Dolores developed a relationship with musician Olé Koretsky, with whom she shared the last years of her life. She flew from New York to London on January 14, 2018, to do a short recording session and a planned vocal for Bad Wolves’ cover of “Zombie” and checked into the Hilton Park Lane hotel that evening, room #2025. Staff later described her as generally in good spirits. On January 15, she phoned her mom around 3 a.m., sounding tired but normal. She allegedly accessed the minibar in her room, consuming five miniatures of spirits and a 35 cl bottle of champagne. Sometime after this, she ran a bath and got in, still wearing pajamas; a hotel maid found her later that morning, submerged face‑up with nose and mouth under the water, unresponsive in the tub, and paramedics pronounced her dead at 9:16 a.m. at the scene. Numerology features prominently in occult rituals, witchcraft, and sacrifices because numbers embody vibrational energies, cosmic symmetries, and symbolic correspondences that amplify intentions and align practitioners with demonic forces.

Numbers structure magic for precision: In Kabbalah, gematria equates words with equal numerical values to unlock hidden scriptural meanings and channel Sephirot energies. Hebrew gematria assigns numerical values to letters, revealing connections; 916 equates to “darkness.” English gematria lists include “Guardians of Horus” or “the Aeon of Aquarius.” In 2008, she was sixth on the list of the ten richest artists in Ireland; her net worth was $66 million. Sixth on the list? $66 million? It equals 666, the number of the beast. Last phone call at 3 am? 6 bottles of alcohol? 3×6 = 666 again. These secret societies leave these clues everywhere to communicate among themselves, but also under the principle of karmic retribution. Non-reaction to occult demonstrations—symbols, rituals, or influences—equals implied consent in magical ethics and law, where inaction presumes permission.

The Metropolitan Police treated the case as a non‑suspicious sudden death, and an inquest was opened on January 19, 2018, then adjourned to await full reports. On September 6, 2018, coroner Dr. Shirley Radcliffe ruled that Dolores died from drowning due to alcohol intoxication, stating there was no evidence of intent or self‑harm. Toxicology tests showed a blood alcohol concentration of about 330 mg per 100 ml—roughly 4x the UK legal driving limit of 80 mg per 100 ml—with only therapeutic levels of prescription drugs and no non‑prescribed substances; the post‑mortem found no external injuries, no signs of assault, and no self‑inflicted wounds, and no suicide note was recovered. Why was she wearing her pajamas? People might take a bath while wearing them due to medical conditions like dementia or extreme intoxication. But on purpose? Why no suicide note? She had three children; she surely would have wanted to let them know what happened.

A BAC of 330 mg per 100 ml equates to 0.33% (more numerology), a level that can induce stupor, unconsciousness, severe coordination loss, and impaired reflexes in most people. Veteran drinkers develop metabolic tolerance, which allows for survival, as evidenced by cases exceeding 0.40%. Alcohol contributes to 30-50% of bathtub drownings, with average BACs around 20%, far below 0.33%; higher levels amplify incapacitation odds. At 0.33%, gag reflex suppression and stupor make slipping, passing out submerged, or aspirating vomit highly probable in a tub. For a veteran Irish drinker, survival of 0.33% BAC is feasible, and as a veteran non-Irish drinker myself, 5 shots of hard liquor plus one bottle of champagne seems little to me. Zero chance such a meek amount would have disabled me. The inquest also reviewed her psychiatric history: documented bipolar disorder, previous heavy drinking episodes, and a 2017 incident in which she wrote a suicide note while intoxicated but did not act further, yet her psychiatrist testified she had been “in remission,” future‑oriented, and looking forward to work.

Her family mentioned she had been sober for a year prior to her death. The singer sounded ‘full of life’ in the lead-up to her death in a voicemail she left just after midnight to Dan Waite, director of Eleven Seven Music, as he had been working with Bad Wolves. He said to The Mirror, “She was looking forward to seeing me in the studio and recording vocals. She sounded full of life, was joking, and was excited to see me and my wife this week.” Drowning in a tub carries occult symbolism tied to baptismal purification gone awry, rebirth rituals, or confrontation with the unconscious, often viewed as a sacrificial immersion or underworld descent. Bathtubs represent confined portals to the subconscious, where water signifies emotional overwhelm or spiritual trials leading to death-rebirth cycles. In Illuminati and elite symbolism, tub scenes depict sin-cleansing baptisms inverting Christian rites into occult rebirths, with drowning implying total ego dissolution for elite initiation.

Esoterically, bathtub drowning symbolizes submersion in the shadow self, repressed traumas, or Jungian unconscious floods signaling annihilation for renewal. Thelema, via Aleister Crowley’s elemental grades, treats water as “Binah’s receptive force in the abyss-crossing, where ego drowns in night-sea journey to knowledge and conversation with the holy guardian angel.” We have seen this happen with Jim Morrison, Aaron Carter, Whitney Houston, and her daughter Bobbi Kristina Brown. We have variations with hot tubs (Matthew Perry) or swimming pools (Brian Jones). The media focused on all the negatives as they pushed their narrative. I prefer to remember Dolores as she was: a rebel lark of the ’90s fluttering from rural to global stages, her pixie frame belying a haunting howl that toppled charts. A Celtic lament piercing the veil between sorrow and salvation. I’d rather remember moments like when she performed “Ave Maria” with Luciano Pavarotti to an audience that included Princess Diana of Wales, who was moved to tears. Rest in peace, Dolores.

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